I have spent so much of my time this weekend watching Law & Order, that I might as well call it the lost weekend. Do I regret it? Not Really. Chris Noth and Vincent D'Onofrio are both two men that I wouldn’t mind spending the night with. *Wink, Wink, Nudge, Nudge* But I can’t decide if watching Law & Order has convinced me that I could never, ever get away with a crime, or that I now know all the secrets of the cops and I totally could.
Other than watching too much TV, Saturday Adam and I got Pucked at Fudpuckers, and picked up our very own air-conditioning unit at Target, to help stifle the heat wave. I do miss the central air I so took forgranted in Alabama. Which reminds me, I’ve been in Callyfornya for 38 days now. That is 38 days without sweet tea, fried okra, or the sight of an outhouse. And although I have had severe sweet tea withdrawals, I still feel like I made the right choice.
I love Adam, and I love the conversations we have. I love the time we spend together and he makes me laugh until my sides split. I love our new house, our new bed, and our new life. I’m starting a job that I’m hopeful about on Friday. And I have every reason to be over the moon happy, and I am. But there is a but, isn’t there always a but? I miss my girlfriends. I not only missed them, I ache for them. Boys are all well and good, but it’s not the same as a night out with the girls. While I’ve never been a social butterfly, I have always had my groups of really close girlfriends. I’ve had my St.Louis childhood friends, my high school posse, and my MUW girls. The type of friends that will tell you, “Yes that shirt makes you look like a bloated hippopotamus and if you go on a date with that guy I will tell everyone you’ve lost your mind.”
And my anxiety rules me in the way that I am extremely phone phobic. So I only get the courage to call my best friend once a week, buts it’s not the same. And I’m so shy I don’t even know how to go about making friends out here. I know things will eventually fall into place, and understand I’ve only been here 38 days and these things take time. But I think I just wanted to vent a little. Have any of you gone through this before?